“Each one of us began to slave and struggle to make himself a god, which he imagined he was supposed to be. Each one slaved in the service of his own idol–his consciously fabricated social self. . .this is Original Sin.” (Thomas Merton in a letter to Daisetz T. Suzuki, 1959)
“For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it.” (Luke 9:23-25)
All our troubles are wrapped around these two statements are they not?
We cannot follow Jesus because we are wrapped up in our own godness, our own sense that we are imaging God and Christ correctly, and as we need and wish them to be. We are caught up in the false belief that we are somehow separate from the divine presence within us. It is us, and we are it, if we only could see that.
We are afraid to relinquish our supposed grasp on ourselves, afraid to let go and let God, afraid to trust in God’s freely given grace, his perfect kenosis. And only when we do, can we be that perfect image, that kenotic presence to the world, as God.
Enter into the presence of the Holy, and lay down your burdens of ego. Open the door and allow the Divine within to guide you. Lose your life, and in the paradox, find it.